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To Eat with Joy: Healing Myself and Finding Compassion (BONUS: Kale Salad Recipe), by Gena Hamshaw

By Visiting Animal — June 05, 2014

I’m loving OHH’s new #ThrowbackThursdays, and hope you are too. If you ever have an idea for an old OHH article that you’d like to see resurrected, please email us at info [at] ourhenhouse [dot] org. Today, I’m reposting a guest column that one of my favorite people on the planet — Gena Hamshaw (of Choosing Raw) — wrote for us in early 2013. Oh, and by the way, Gena has a new book coming out in just a few weeks — which can be pre-ordered now

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Gena Hamshaw has appeared on our podcast more than once (most recently, she chatted with us about a study she is helping to conduct involving finding vegan solutions to GI disease). We adore everything this woman stands for, and are devoted followers of her extremely popular and prolific blog, Choosing Raw. One of about a thousand reasons we adore Choosing Raw is because it is home to the Green Recovery Series, which highlights stories of people who have moved beyond disordered eating, and, in the process, embraced a healthy vegan diet and lifestyle. Gena, who is one of the most brilliant people we know, has gone down that path herself — moving from a person struggling with anorexia, to finding her way back to health, eventually winding up as a pre-medical post-baccalaureate student working hard to devote her life to helping both humans and animals alike. Her story, which she has agreed to share with Our Hen House readers today, is full of inspiration and — if you’re like us — familiarity. If Gena is not already a hero to you, she will be soon. Oh, and because we can’t get enough of Gena’s recipes, she is sharing one of her favorites (and ours), which you’ll find beneath her story. Lastly, stay tuned for some very exciting news regarding a collaboration between Gena and Our Hen House (egad!). For now, however, you really must read on…

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To Eat with Joy: Healing Myself and Finding Compassion

By Gena Hamshaw

Gena Hamshaw

Gena Hamshaw

When people ask me why I’m vegan, I say that I went vegan for my health, and I remain vegan for animals. I first explored a vegan diet seven years ago. I was in my early 20s, suffering from chronic digestive problems and still haunted by the eating disorder that had shadowed my teen years. I was run-down and looking for health answers. When veganism delivered these answers, I became convinced that it was the only healthy diet out there, and for a while health evangelism was the cornerstone of my lifestyle.

Today, I believe that plant-centric eating is essential to good health, and that vegan diets can afford energy, vitality, and protection from chronic disease. That said, I no longer believe that there is one single dietary route to health. What keeps me vegan, then, is not my former zealotry about its health benefits, but the fact that at some crucial point along my vegan journey, the animal rights movement took hold in my consciousness, and a love of animals entered my heart. I had stopped eating red meat (for the most part) in childhood because I was traumatized by Bambi, so it would be unfair to say that I didn’t care at all about animals when I first explored a vegan diet. But animals did not factor prominently into the decision. When at last they did, my consideration of their well-being redefined my relationship with food.

My eating disorder spanned 13 years, during which it varied in severity. There were times when I barely ate, and longer periods during which I did eat, but only in a highly controlled, obsessive, and guilty fashion. The only criteria that mattered to me when I selected food were (a) was it low calorie, and (b) was it free of any of the things that reflexively frightened me – carbs, fat, oils, and so on? I would have tried any diet, so long as it might result in weight loss: low fat, high protein, low carb/grain free. I took no joy in eating, and I certainly didn’t think about the way my food choices might stretch beyond my own plate.

My choice to explore veganism came at the suggestion of a GI doctor who thought dairy might be exacerbating my terrible case of IBS (he was right). For the first few months, I was actually terrified of the diet, because I was eating so many more grains and beans and starches than I’d ever allowed myself before. It felt odd to be eating not for weight loss or fitness, but for the sake of my health. I tried to put my food choices into the context of doing something generous and nourishing for my body, rather than trying to control it.

Even with this new approach, however, I was still prone to obsessiveness. What was previously a fixation on thinness became an obsession with healthiness; though I deemed the word absurd at the time (how could the desire to be healthy ever be a bad thing, I reasoned), I was clearly flirting with orthorexia, an obsession with healthy eating so strong that it is classified as an eating disorder. Fortunately, I was older and had been around the eating disorder block when this happened, so I was soon able to rein in my behaviors. The overall interest in health remained (in a good way), but the zealotry quieted. I began enjoying foods that had no health advantage to offer me, simply because they tasted delicious. And I was much happier.

At some point in all of this, I visited the Woodstock Farm Animal Sanctuary in upstate New York. I was volunteering at an event, and I heard the founder of the sanctuary, Jenny Brown, giving a speech. At one point she said (and I quote), “It’s not all about having a perfect bowel movement.” I had just spent the day staring into the soulful eyes of the animals at the farm, and Jenny’s words hit home. I spent a lot of time that week thinking about the way I’d almost deliberately blocked animals out of the personal calculus I’d done when I became vegan. And for the first time, I sat down to eat thinking not about how the food on my plate was going to make me more vibrant or “glowy” or help me live longer, but about the role it might play in preventing unnecessary suffering.

Slowly, I began to read about animal rights, and with every passing day my commitment to helping animals grew. This commitment extended beyond food choices, naturally – it also meant not purchasing products tested on animals, or supporting the leather industry – but the most significant thing I did for animals was to frame my vegan diet in a compassionate context. Along the way, I could feel my uneasy relationship with food shifting. For as long as I could remember, hunger had felt shameful, and eating had felt weak. My most valiant recovery efforts had not eradicated my tendency to feel disappointed in myself after a big meal, to swear I’d eat less the next night. Placing my focus on compassion changed all of this; after eating a meal that had prevented unnecessary suffering and that had also nourished me deeply, I felt a sense of peace. There were more things in heaven and earth, I realized, than me, my body anxieties, and my need to define myself through restraint.

Today, I still experience lingering struggles from my eating disorder, but I’m equipped to handle them, and I consider myself fully recovered. I delight in food, and I do not pick apart the nutrient benefits and health advantages of everything I eat. Life is not an endless race to be thinner, fitter, leaner, and more energetic. Most significantly, eating no longer feels like a failure of willpower. It feels like an act of joy. Because I realize that my food choices exist in a complex web, wherein the purchases I make have an impact on other living beings, eating also feels like a form of activism.

Anyone who has had an eating disorder knows what it’s like to eat alone, in a vacuum – to regard food simply as a vehicle by which one might gain or lose, succeed or fail. Veganism showed me that eating is not a solitary act. It is a personal act, of course – an act of nourishment, sustenance, and pleasure. But it is also a social act. The foods we eat impact not only our lives, but the lives of the animals (human and non-human) with whom we share this world. It’s important that we learn to look beyond our own fixations on physical self-improvement when we sit down to a meal, and consider the broader consequences of our food choices.

If you’re trapped in an eating disorder, my most sincere hope for you is that you’ll ultimately come to appreciate food’s power to do good – for you, for animals, and for our world. I hope that you’ll seek out the help you need, and that you’ll approach the recovery process with courage and optimism. I hope that you’ll start to appreciate food not only as fuel, but also as a form of pleasure and a form of activism. And I hope that this appreciation will save your life, and many others.

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How much do I love thee?

How much do I love thee?

Kale salad changed my life. It was one of the raw recipes I first discovered, and it was love at first bite. Kale salads sing when dressed with a lot of acid and fat. Use lemon juice, apple cider vinegar, avocado, almond butter, and flax, hemp, or olive oil, and be sure to throw in as many colorful vegetables as you can possibly manage. I eat this salad all the time, and never get tired of it. As I eat, I’m always grateful both for its taste and its nutritional richness. 

Everyone could use a massage (even kale).

Everyone could use a massage (even kale).

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Gena Hamshaw is a certified clinical nutritionist and the author of Choosing Raw, a blog devoted to vegan and raw recipes, animal rights, the promotion of positive body image, and a mindful approach to health. Her work has been published in O Magazine, VegNews Magazine, Food52,and Whole Living Daily. In her old life, Gena was a book editor. In her current life, she is a pre-medical post-baccalaureate student, and plans to apply to medical schools this coming spring. Having spent many years of her life battling an eating disorder and a host of digestive problems, Gena is particularly interested the mind/body connection and its role in the healing process. She hopes to bring a compassionate and intuitive, yet evidence-based approach to a career in health care.






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  1. Midas_Skies
    June 10, 2014 at 4:24 pm

    I really don’t subscribe to the view expressed by Gena Hamshaw that the "healthiness" of our food choices is less important than their (apparent) animal-friendliness. Not least because I think the idea that all vegan foods are automatically more ethical or more environmentally-friendly than all animal products is just as flawed as the idea that all vegan foods are automatically more healthy. Everything I’ve learned so far tells me that the truth is actually far more nuanced than that, with all three aspects depending very much on which vegan foods you replace the animal products with. ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::I was even reading a forum recently where a poster made quite a convincing case that a serving of wild salmon would be better for animals than a serving of most highly processed soy foods. And ditto for the environmental and health benefits. I’m not saying that he was right, and I’m definitely not saying this to promote fish. I’m saying this to try and and make the case that the “healthiness” of our vegan food is every bit as important and worthy of vigilance as it’s (apparent) animal-friendliness. Because my experience tells me that the foods that best protect our health have an uncanny knack of being the same foods that best protect animals and the environment, and when we lose sight of any one of those things, we risk jeopardising all three. ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: I recently came across this article on the Guardian website about the late Donald Watson, and was heartened to see that he too viewed the "healthiness" of this diet as being totally relevant and complementary to the ethical benefits, both in terms of personal fulfillment and in terms of activism: http://www.theguardian.com/news/2006/jan/14/guardianobituaries.food -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Living to a healthy old age was important to Watson because he felt the need to show the healthiness of the vegan way of life, and because he refused to take any medicines owing to their link with animal testing and vivisection. "At 93," he said in 2004, "and never having taken medicines, orthodox or fringe, I am proof that after a weak childhood in a meat-eating family, veganism works. Are there any other nonogenarians who have never taken medicine?" ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------



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